Sorry it's been awhile. Oh well, you guys'll deal :]]

My life's amazing! I have a boyfriend that I'd do anything for, Dalton<3 He seriously means more to me than any other guy ever has. I know I may say that a lot, but I really mean it this time. He's more than I could ever hope for :D

Everything I need is here in my hands;
happiness is the only thing I understand.

Love is passion, obsession; it's someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy & who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head & listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk. If you get hurt, you'll come back, because the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey & not fall deeply in love; well you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try, because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

Maybe that's what happens;
you fall in love to fall apart,
& yet you'll always want to do it again.

She said to him, "Don't walk away;
forever is more than just today."

I want to be the place in your heart
that you can never let go of <3

If love is a game then it has to be
the hardest game in the world.
After all, how can anyone win
a game when there are no rules?

And I don't dream since I quit sleeping,
& I haven't slept since I met you.

My life just doesn't work without you.

You've gotten so caught up in being alone
that you're afraid of what might happen
if you actually find someone else that
can take you away from it.
-Nicholas Sparks

You demand to be chased for your love,
but my heart is far too weak
to run for you this long.

Of all the boys who could have
stolen my heart, I'm so glad
that it was you <3

You've pledged your love to each other, written mash notes & insisted this time it's for real. Welcome to the world of broken hearts, where all those promises get blown away in the blink of an infidelity.

The real lover is the man who can
thrill you by touching your head
or smiling into your eyes
or just staring into space.
-Marilyn Monroe

TEENAGE GIRLS:
we laugh too loud, go insane over small things, obsess over small things, sing off key, act weird, have to buy things, need to be friends with, can't go to the bathroom alone, eat too much, ask if we're fat often, cry all the time, stay up all night; but all that doesn't matter because we love each other anyway & that's one thing we are good at ♥

Pile up too many tomorrow's
& you'll find that you've collected
nothing but a bunch of empty yesterdays.

It is my responsibility as your best friend
to make sure you go do exciting things,
even when you don't want to.
-Gilmore Girls

If I had my life to live over again,
I'd give you more kisses & hold you closer.
I'd memorize everything you ever said to me
& carry it in my heart like a poem.
If I had my life to live over again,
next time I'd find you sooner so I
could love you longer, better & truer.

Sometimes you have to put your hopes
in a safe place and come back
to them another day.

And remember; you're still young enough to
fall in & out of love a few more times
before you get it just right. It doesn't
sound fun, but trust me,
it's worth it every single time.

So I found the cutest thing ever, I figured I would share it :D

What Kids Think About Love

HOW DO PEOPLE IN LOVE TYPICALLY BEHAVE?
"When a person gets kissed for the first time, they fall down and they don't get up for at least an hour."
Wendy, age 8
"Mushy, like puppy dogs...except puppy dogs don't wag their tails nearly as much."
Arnold, age 10
"All of a sudden, the people get movies fever so they can sit together in the dark."
Sherm, age 8

CONCERNING WHY LOVE HAPPENS BETWEEN TWO PARTICULAR PEOPLE
"One of the people has freckles and so he finds somebody else who has freckles too."
Andrew, age 6
"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell. That's why perfume and deodorant are so popular."
Mae, age 9
"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful."
Manuel, age 8

ON WHAT FALLING IN LOVE IS LIKE
"Like an avalanche where you have to run for your life."
John, age 9
"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long."
Glenn, age 7

ON THE ROLE OF BEAUTY AND HANDSOMENESS IN LOVE
"If you want to be loved by somebody who isn't already in your family, it doesn't hurt to be beautiful."
Anita, age 8
"It isn't always just how you look. Look at me. I'm handsome like anything and I haven't got anybody to marry me yet."
Brian, age 7
"Beauty is skin deep. But how rich you are can last a long time."
Christine, age 9

REFLECTIONS ON THE NATURE OF LOVE
"Love is the most important thing in the world, but baseball is pretty good too."
Greg, age 8

CONCERNING WHY LOVERS OFTEN HOLD HANDS
"They want to make sure their rings don't fall off because they paid good money for them."
Gavin, age 8
"They are just practicing for when they might have to walk down the aisle someday and do the holy matchimony thing."
John, age 9

CONFIDENTIAL OPINIONS ABOUT LOVE
"I'm in favor of love as long as it doesn't happen when 'The Simpson's' is on television."
Anita, age 6
"Love is foolish...but I still might try it sometime."
Floyd, age 9
"Yesterday I kissed a boy in a private place...we were behind a tree."
Carey, age 7
"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me."
Dave, age 8
"I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding fourth grade hard enough."
Regina, age 10

THE PERSONAL QUALITIES YOU NEED TO HAVE IN ORDER TO BE A GOOD LOVER
"Sensitivity don't hurt."
Robbie, age 8
"One of you should know how to write a check. Because, even if you have tons of love, there is still going to be a lot of bills."
Ava, age 8

SOME SUREFIRE WAYS TO MAKE A PERSON FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU
"Tell them that you own a whole bunch of candy stores."
Del, age 6
"Shake your hips and hope for the best."
Camille, age 9
"Yell out that you love them at the top of your lungs...and don't worry if their parents are right there."
Manuel, age 8
"Don't do things like have smelly, green sneakers. You might get attention, but attention ain't the same thing as love."
Alonzo, age 9
"One way is to take the girl out to eat. Make sure it's something she likes to eat. French fries usually work for me."
Bart, age 9

HOW CAN YOU TELL IF TWO ADULTS EATING DINNER AT A RESTAURANT ARE IN LOVE?
"Just see if the man picks up the check. That's how you can tell if he's in love."
Bobby, age 9
"Lovers will just be staring at each other and their food will get cold...other people care more about the food."
Bart, age 9
"Romantic adults usually are all dressed up, so if they are just wearing jeans it might mean they used to go out or they just broke up."
Sarah, age 9
"See if the man has lipstick on his face."
Sandra, age 7
"It's love if they order one of those desserts that are on fire. They like to order those because it's just like how their hearts are. On fire."
Christine, age 9

WHAT MOST PEOPLE ARE THINKING WHEN THEY SAY "I LOVE YOU"
"The person is thinking: Yeah, I really do love him. But I hope he showers at least once a day."
Michelle, age 9
"Some lovers might be real nervous, so they are glad that they finally got it out and said it and now they can go eat."
Dick, age 7

HOW WAS KISSING INVENTED?
"I know one reason that kissing was created. It makes you feel warm all over, and they didn't always have electric heat or fireplaces or even stoves in their houses."
Gina, age 8

HOW A PERSON LEARNS TO KISS
"You can have a big rehearsal with your Barbie and Ken dolls."
Julia, age 7
"You learn it right on the spot when the gushy feelings get the best of you."
Brian, age 7
"It might help to watch soap operas all day."
Carin, age 9

WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE?
"When they're rich."
Pam, age 7
"It's never okay to kiss a boy. They always slobber all over you. That's why I stopped doing it."
Tammy, age 7
"If it's your mother, you can kiss her anytime. But if it's a new person, you have to ask permission."
Roger, age 6
"I look at kissing like this: Kissing is fine if you like it, but it's a free country and nobody should be forced to do it."
Amy, age 8
"You should never kiss a girl unless you have enough bucks to buy her a big ring and her own VCR, cause she'll want to have videos of the wedding."
Jim, age 10
"Never kiss in front of other people. It's a big embarrassing thing if anybody sees you. But if nobody sees you, I might be willing to try it with a handsome boy, but just for a few hours."
Kally, age 9

HOW TO MAKE LOVE ENDURE
"Spend most of your time loving instead of going to work."
Dick, age 7
"Don't forget your wife's name. That will mess up the love."
Erin, age 8
"Be a good kisser. It might make your wife forget that you never take out the trash."
Dave, age 8
"Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind. Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch."
Natalie, age 9

WHAT IS THE PROPER AGE TO GET MARRIED?
"Eighty-four! Because at that age, you don't have to work anymore, and you can spend all your time loving each other in your bedroom."
Judy, age 8
"Once I'm done with kindergarten, I'm going to find me a wife!"
Tom, age 5

WHAT DO MOST PEOPLE DO ON A DATE?
"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date."
Mike, age 10

THE GREAT DEBATE: IS IT BETTER TO BE SINGLE OR MARRIED?
"It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need somebody to clean up after them!"
Lynette, age 9

Well, there has been SO much going on lately.

I broke up with my boyfriend in February, that was such a disaster though because he won't even talk to me now. uhmm, I go in a huge fight with two of my best friends, Kelsey and Tiffany. Tiffany and I are okay now; Kelsey and I are pretty much done. oh well, shit happens. You just gotta deal with it!

So what's up with the comments lately? There hasn't been ANY. and that sucks. That's the reason I haven't been updating more frequently. Comment more, mmk?

I've never been scared of someone before.
Sometimes maybe a little intimidated, but never scared. But you, you scare me,
with your beautiful brown eyes
and your amazing smile.
I'm so scared that I will want to love you
forever, and you will want me only
for a few moments in your life.

You're the only one, who really knew me at all<3

I've had a bad few weeks. Ever since the new year, my boyfriend and i have been fighting like crazy, i've grown apart from one of my best friends, and ugh, my family is all messed up too. its nuts. i honestly don't know how much more i can take. im going on vacation next week, so that'll be a good break from everything, thank gawdddd.

Update. I got no comments on the last entry...COMMENT.

The only reason why two people stay together
is because they both offer each other something
that no other can give to them.
- Lisa Simpson

Yeah, we're annoying.
We sing for long amounts of time,
going off-key on purpose.
We poke each other for no reason,
burst out laughing in dead silence,
make stupid faces,
call each other names,
tell jokes that aren't funny,
trip over our own feet,
& know you won't ever get the things
we find hilarious.
But that's what makes us best friends.

Best friends are best friends because
no matter how long it's been since
you've talked to them,
when you see them again,
you can start right where you left off.

There are some things we keep remembering
after everyone else has forgotten & moved on.

We're like the places you just never see.
You read about them, you know you'd love them;
That's how you fell in love with me.

And deep down I always knew
all the times I thought that I loved you,
it was just an easy answer,
it was make believe.
But I still believe that this heart will learn to love.

And for once she didn't want to sit there
& wonder if she made the right choice;
All she wanted was to love him.

 You're still as sad as you ever were.

You've got to learn to lie to make everyone happy,
& you're going to have to cry to make it on your own.

And as we grow, emotions start to die.
We need to find new ways just to keep
our desires alive.

You can try to hide your feelings,
but they won't disappear
if they don't go away.
There's a reason why they're there.

We admire people for their strengths,
& we love them for their imperfections.

It may have been in bits and pieces,
but I gave you the best of me.
- Jim Morrison

Nobody really cares if you're miserable,
so you might as well be happy.
- Cynthia Nelms

If you're getting pushed away;
don't hold on tighter.
Letting go when you're getting
pushed is the only way
he will feel what it's like without you.
Even though it's the hardest thing to do,
do it for him.

I can name all fifty states;
forty-eight get in the way of
me being next to you.

Scars can never be healed, only hidden.
Having them on the outside is just a way
of hiding the ones within.

I can tell you want some company,
but I can't fix you & you don't want me.

Don't merely be a duplicate of someone else,
but be something no one has ever seen before.

The thing that bothers her is when people
walk into her life & she knows they can't stay.

I guess you could say you helped me through it.
Well, you could also say you caused this.
Thoughts of you occupied my mind,
& though you don't know it, I think of those
memories of us all the time.

And you know because when you speak,
it's the truth that what you're doing,
it's not wrong, you're just simply in love.

I don't know what I want to do with my life; I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any of me left. Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away & hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding & finding its way back towards me and I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more.

The truth is that I miss you;
It's getting so hard to not be able to be with you.

We walked to the shore & dipped our feet in the frigid water. We were freezing, but we just wanted to be together. You held my hand & asked if everything was okay. I kissed your cheek and said, "Baby, of course everything's okay when I'm with you."

I would've never thought I would fall for you.
& it's hard because we'll never be.
And no matter what happens,
someone still ends up getting hurt.

Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain & futures have a way of falling down mid-flight. After awhile you learn even sunshine burns if you get too much, so plant your own garden & decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, & you really do have worth. And you learn & learn with every goodbye.

Some people tell me "You can't",
Some say "Don't."
Some simply "Give up."
I reply, "I won't."

She loves being with him, it's like she can
finally be herself with him, & that's what
she's been looking for all this time.

She's constantly moving.
Every time she gets hurt, she runs away,
meeting new people & seeing new places,
like that will make her forget.

You melt my heart inside,
A treasure did I find.
I wish that you'd be mine;
Please, love, be my valentine.

I was fine before you walked into my life<3

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And she'll continue to smile,
no matter how hurt she is.

There you go again saying you're so different from everyone else, but look in the mirror; you're all the same. Even though you dress different, you think just alike, saying you're sorry & nothings quite right. You think the world revolves around you & when we all help. You say you're alone, because it's something you think you can just do, just so you know, the world's not against you.

Some people are so oblivious.
She's been there all this time
& he still walks past her everyday as if she's not.

He asked, "Do you believe in change?"
She shook her head & looked up with hopeless eyes.

And darling, I wish everything
could be alright between us.

You have such a pretty smile;
it’s a shame the things you hide behind it.

Tell me; what am I supposed to do?
When I count my thoughts, they're mostly you.

You tell me it is too early to be looking back,
that I shouldn't feel how I do.
This emotion I feel is so bizarre;
if only I were close to you.

All the times that we spent together, I'll never forget.
& all the things we did together, I'll never regret.
I'm thankful we met so I'll treasure the rest of my life,
& think of you if I'm ever upset <3

Sometimes what I do may seem ignorant & wrong, but I'm sorry if you feel that way. To me life isn't a song; there's no lyrics you can sing to, no paper to lead the way; I can't just look up to the heaven's & figure out what to say. But I can try as hard as possible to live the life I want. I guess I just have to dance to my own beat because life isn't a show & you don't pay for a seat.

Life is but a voice in a crowd,
so make sure that what you say counts.

What does it say about me when I know
that I would change everything, anything,
that makes me who I am, just to be with you?

It's not the way you look at her,
It's not the way you say her name,
It's not that way you hold her tight,
It's not the way you tell her shes beautiful.
It's the way you look at her like no one else matters
It's the way you say her name like it's the only thing on your mind
It's the way you hold her even though everyone is looking
It's the way you remind her she's beautiful in a world where she's never good enough.

If I had a dollar for all of the times
I thought I found the right one,
I'd be a billionaire.

When you think of those days, I hope you think of me.
When you think of scary movies,
PJ pants, popsicles, or the lake; I hope you think of me.
When you think butterflies, football games,
standing in lines for roller coasters, the state fair,
& haunted houses; I hope you think of me.
When you think of the color blue, or running away,
I hope I’m the first thing that comes to your mind.
When you think of huge phone bills, baseball games,
or softball tournaments, I hope I'm what you think of.
When you think of toes, or man-flops,
I hope you think of me.
When you think of getting pulled over,
laying in a hammock, spinning rides,
or the 22 of every month, I hope you think of me.
When you think back over these past months,
I hope I’m the first one that goes through your head.

You know, I don't think I’ll ever be happy.
Where ever I am, I’ll always wish
I was some place else.
Whatever I have,
I’ll always want something different.

The truth is I’ve never fooled anyone;
I let people fool themselves.
They didn't bother to find out who & what I was;
instead they would invent a character for me.
I wouldn't argue with them;
they were obviously loving somebody that I wasn't.

Shut your mouth and listen;
there's no time for reminiscing
because thinking of the past
just never changed a thing.

wouldn't mind a dude that could take my attitude,
and take the time to listen.
Someone that understands when I need
a little space and when I need attention.

I never got to tell you how I really feel;
lets just say when you were still here
my smiles were real... 

Put down your hollow tips
& kiss your lover's lips
& know that fate is what we make of it.

Miss me, baby,
when you hear our favorite song;
& miss me, baby, when you start to sing along.

When he turned around I grabbed
his shoulders & I kissed him.
I took the things I couldn't bring myself to say,
and poured them into him.

We hold these truths self evident,
the lies we used to represent who we are,
because it was never meant to be.
&& all the songs we used to sing,
they used to tell us all about how
it was never meant to be </3

Because I believe in romance,
kissing while you slow dance.

I want to be the surgeon that cuts you open,
that fixes all of life's mistakes.
I want to be the house that you were raised in,
the only place that you feel safe.

Well if the clock caved in on itself
& our smiles never faded,
the day would never end
& our sadness would be permanently sedated